oh well wayneo, you shoulda been bustin me ;) i look back at my response and i wanna say"wow, gee whiz, were you some type of ranger rambo green berret navy seal commando or something" but once again, me..=supreme wise @#$:p btw, everyone i knew,in the senior ranks,that had been doing this stuf for years(like me) real honest to god, brave the bullets kinda guys,.....we all hated flying..in anything..scared us, jumping,scared us, repelling out ac,scared us. doing airmobile,scared us.over the years we'd seen alot go bad quick,the more ya know,the more ya know that can go wrong, plus you've been involved in your share of bad stuff and probably dodged the bullet a couple of times. so that's where i'm comming from. if you ever saw me tho, you'd think me,and my buddies, calm and cool. but hey, it's ok to be scared, just do the mission. btw, mx...scares me, that's why i wanna race this year:think i think i see a very disturbing pattern here.