Wow !!!! All I can say is someone upstairs is looking out for you !! I guess what I would do is start small. Get back on the bike and just putts until you feel comfortable again, then step it up a notch. Hit some small easy tables to get the feel of air time again. I know how you feel, it's been about 3 years since my last big crash. It wasn't near as bad as yours tho. I overshot a 45 foot stepdown by about twice its length, flat landed the bike, bottomed out the suspenssion so hard that I bent the bars downward, broke my left wrist and my right shoulder from the hit. To this day I am still having problems getting the courage to jump again because it scared me so bad of how serious it could have been. This jump is a 3rd gear maybe half throttle jump. I don't know where my head was that day but it sure wasn't on my shoulders, because I hit that jump in 4th at about 3\4 throttle. I flat landed from about 40 feet up. The stupid part was that I've hit this jump 100's of times before so it's not like I didn't know it. I ride a yz450f and when you get these bikes wound up, it's like trying to stop a runaway freight train. I am only 29 now but I can't ride like I used to. I guess I'm just too scared of getting hurt now. You just have to get back on and try, but don't forget that it's not about how good you are or once was, it's about having fun and enjoying life. So saddle up and fly free !!!